Phil Hartman

     Wow, I just read about Phil Hartman on wikipedia.  An amazing life.  Too bad his crazy drug wife shot and murdered him in his sleep, what a bitch.
     You can't trust your wife.  She might murder you.

     Anyway, wow.

     Too bad about him.

     I did not know he was instrumental in helping to create Pee Wee Herman, and that he was Captain Carl in the Playhouse.  Dang.  I had no idea.
     He was also Bill Clinton on SNL, and Troy McClure on The Simpsons.
     Also, he started as a graphic designer, but got bored with that.

     Talented guy, dead because his wife freaked out.

     Well, women don't like the guy to be emotionally distant.  They want to be the center of attention, and he was the star of that marriage, and probably with all the work he was doing, he just wanted to chillax when he got home.
     Instead, he got shot in the head.
     Thanks, wife.

     Drugs fuck you up and make you ugly, is all I can say.

Random Notes

     Hello.  I'm a little out of it.
     I woke up at seven a.m. and was thinking about....no, I woke up at 6 a.m., and I was thinking about making an early start of it today, but then, when I have gone to the cafe early, and have tried to write, if my brain isn't rested enough, I just end up writing a bunch of crap, kind of what I am doing now.

     Anyway, I have my coffee now, that is all that matters.
 
     It is frustrating to try and communicate in 'Clone Wars Adventures'.  There are things that are impossible to say because of the filter.
     Anyway, I made 50,000 credits yesterday, by turning the sound down on the game, and just watching Babylon 5, while I did some serious credit grinding.  It was the most I ever made in one day.
     The Kysshhyk lightsaber costs 65,000 credits.  That is a little steep.  Not even worth getting the credits for.
     Some kids don't know that I have multiple lots of the same kind, so they think that I've destroyed the old lots in order to build new ones.  Don't worry kids, I still have all of my old lots.
     There was a kid who didn't know a kid was handicapped, so he apologized for being mean in the way that he asked questions about this person.  He didn't know.  He sure felt like a heal when he found out.  I ended up deleting him, and then I accepted him as a friend again after he begged.  He didn't know, so it was forgivable.  He said he didn't want to have trouble with Sony for being on too many people's ignore list.  I don't think that is true.  I don't think Sony cares how many ignore lists you are on.
     Anyway, life is good, I just have to figure out how to get my life going.
     Recently I heard the saying that, "It is not selling out, it is buying in".  I kind of like that.  It beats starving to death and being homeless.
     I don't want to go back to a life of washing dishes.  That would suck.
     I don't know what I'm going to do.
     I have an idea for a Darth Maul dance video that I want to do.  I'll speed it up.  That's what Chaplin did a lot.  He just sped things up a little sometimes, and that made it funnier then what it would have been.
     There is a new movie called, "Hugo".  It looks like it would be good.
     I can't keep up with movies much anymore.  I would rather just watch them on my flat screen monitor and have my video games going on my other screen.
     I am having fun doing my thing on 'Clone Wars Adventures'.  I like to build.  Not even a million credits would be enough in this game.  I can spend 50,000 credits in twenty minutes or less, I found out yesterday.  It's sick.
     It takes way more longer to earn the credits than to spend them.  That is true in real life, too.
     I wonder why girls and women like to spend so much?  I don't get it.  It's a thrill, with sexual connotations.  They are spending their lifeforce, in the same way as an orgasm.  It is a rush, I suppose.  Especially fun for them must be to spend husband's money, while he slobs away for a guy who is micro-managing his life.  That must suck.
     Most of the people on CWA are nice, some are kind of a pain.  The ones that are nasty I just put on my ignore list.

     Watching Babylon 5 is good.  I like Battlestar Galactica better, but you can only watch that so many times.
     I will have plenty to watch.  Four more seasons to go.
     It is a good show.

     In other news, I have nothing going on.  I'm going to have to do something about that.  I'm kind of a loser artist and my life is going nowhere.

     I've been thinking about my sci-fi epic 'Space Journey Battles'.  I want to blog for that today.  That is in fact what I am preparing for right now.  I have to get rid of all the dredge in my mind before I can think clearly for that.
  
     Too bad I am not good at anything, though.  It is a real shame.

     So, I have my video to film today, which should be fun.

     At least I am making a blog right now that can be monetized.  I don't know if anything will ever come of it.  I don't know, it might take years before anybody notices this blog.  Why would they?  I have no idea.  I could update the design, and make it look more attractive.  A lot of people do that.  What happens is they have a real pretty site, and the content isn't all that good.  I've looked at blogs, and I haven't been too impressed yet.  The technology is there, but the writing isn't.
     Maybe I can write something different, I don't know.

     Girls don't like science fiction much, as a rule of thumb. 

Babylon 5

     I never had an easy time getting into this show.  I didn't know what was going on.  I never had time to watch it.
     The couple of times I did watch it, the alien chicks were appealing, especially the bald ones.
     I wanted to like the show but couldn't get into the groove.

     Well, my friend loaned me Season 1 so I could finally watch it.  I've been running that thing off the hook, and enjoying the hell out of it.
     It's a pretty good show, and very enjoyable.

     It's a serious drama, but I find myself laughing.
     It's really funny when they are so serious, saying lines that people wouldn't really say in real life.  It's all part of the fun.
     It really does seem like all the characters had words written for them by one person.

     Meanwhile, there is a little cutie in here, she looks to be about 20, just in the moment of blossoming.  She is really skinny and adorable.
     I slept with a girl like that once, and it was a completely awesome experience.

     Anyway, Tattoo Face is out there smoking when I just heard him talk in the cafe how he quit smoking, except for certain occasions.  I guess it is an occasion.
     He was in my way, when I was going to film, standing in the exact location where I was going to place my camera.
     I had to wait for him to move.
     He finally did move, and I was able to film my video.  It came out pretty good.  It will be on youtube later today.
    
     I'm still wondering what guy is going to marry the girl with two heads when she comes of age.  They are both separate people from the waist up, but they share the same feelings from the waste down.  Each girl has her own arm, and they had to each pass a driving test.
     What guy is going to sleep with a two-headed girl?  I don't know.
     There were some Siamese twins joined at the hip in The Guinness Book of World Records years ago, and they got married to a guy.  I guess that gave him four breasts.
     Anyway, the girl with two heads is 16 or 17, so it will be interesting to see what happens with them in the upcoming years.
     I'm sure it was a tough situation when the doctor had to tell the mother that her daughter was born with two heads.  I can't even imagine what she must have felt.
     Otherwise, things are pretty normal in that family.  It just so happens that they have a daughter with two heads.
     If you think I am making this up, go look on youtube.
     They've turned down television offers to be interviewed.  They don't want to use this to make money, they just want to live as normal a life as they can.
     However, they could get their college education paid for, and have enough money to live for a while when they move out of the house.
     They could make some serious money.
     They don't want to be subjected to the press, though.  I understand that.
     On the other hand, they might want to make some money while the gettin' is good.  Money doesn't grow on trees, and if they have to pay for an expensive surgery at some point in the future, they will have the money.

     Anyway, I was watching Babylon 5, and I had the sound down on Clone Wars Adventures.  I managed to earn 25,000 credits.  That is awesome.  Since I had something good to occupy my mind with, I was able to earn a lot of credits easily without getting mentally fatigued from it all.

     It was fun last night, drinking whiskey with a friend, and listening to Jimi Hendrix.  It was awesome.

     Nice that I have a Darth Maul video to edit.  lol.

     My plan for the day is to watch Babylon 5, farm for credits, and drink some beer.  It sounds good to me.

A blog entry can take just as much time as making a video or a painting

     Writing these entries on Blogger can be really time-consuming.  I've sat here for a couple of hours just writing a couple of entries.  It takes a while to write what is in my head.  I don't even worry about quality much.  I can worry about that later.  The main thing is to get the thoughts out.
     Being a writer is futile, though.
     Every word has to matter, or why bother to write at all?
     It has to be of quality, because readers expect a lot, and they don't like it when the material is not up to par.
     A lot of young people don't care about writing much, or spelling, or anything.  They just don't care, and they spend a lot of time mocking the English language, mostly, I would guess, because they don't understand it at all.
     I guess it was hard for me to take things seriously when I was a teenager, too, what with all of the chaos at home.  There was always some kid crying, or something.  It is amazing that we all turned out 'mostly okay'.  One brother didn't make it.  He died.  I think he would have loved all the Clone Wars stuff they have now.  He never lived to see Annakin turn into Darth Vader, and that is sad.

     Anyway, I don't know what I'm talking about at this point.
     I was just outside watching people, looking at things, and thinking about videos that I want to make.
     I want to make an art video of this painting I have.  That could be fun.  I really want to do it.
     I have no control over whether or not anybody watches my videos.  Either they watch it or they don't.
     All I have to do if I want to get hits, though, is to film South Park clips.  But I can't just have a channel of other people's stuff.  I have to be original on some level.
     Filming South Park is a service, though, because a lot of people can't watch South Park in their home country, so they depend on youtube for the latest stuff.

     I was looking into making money with blogs last night.  Apparently, there is a lot to it.  In order to become more business-oriented, in order to make money, I should write about products, or things that people actually want to know about.
     I wrongly assume that people would read my blogs to be slightly entertained as they peruse over my material. 
     I suppose I would be horrified if my former teachers read my crap, and saw that my material was not very good.
     I suppose I have to show them, too.
     It's all a magic act, I guess.
     To be a good writer, sometimes you have to do the smoke and mirrors illusionist thing.

     I saw a magic act on youtube last night where the woman magically changed her dress more than fifteen times really quick on stage when the magician would hold draping in front of her.  It was impressive.  She wore several dresses underneath the first dress.  I don't know how she changed into some of them.  It is a mystery.  A lot of the onstage dress changes occurred within less then five seconds.  It was hard to believe what I was watching, but it happened nonetheless.  I had never seen anything like it.  They were very well-practiced and rehearsed.  Their act was executed with perfection.

     A lot of people will describe something that is good as 'tight' as in, 'that is tight'.  I know what they mean.  They use that word because it is cool, and they don't know what else to say.  They say it with emphasis due to a lack of vocabulary.
     They didn't like it when I described other things as 'loose' or 'untight', which, according to their logic, would be suitable.
     It's not my fault I know more words to describe things than just 'tight'.
     That word is over-used too much.  Then if you question them about it, they get mad.
     It gets frustrating to try and communicate with hip-hop people, and for me, it is hard to care.
     It's easier to limit yourself, especially if you don't have a command of the English language.
     You don't have to jump as high if the bar is set low.

     Okay, I've sat here for hours, and I don't know if typing a bunch of **** is going to do me or anybody any good.
     I could be at home doing something constructive, like building my lot on 'Clone Wars Adventures'.

AT-AT's and other s***

     I'm just sitting here.  I just finished writing a blog about Han Solo and other thoughts that came to mind.  It was a fun article to read.  I don't know if it makes sense or not, and I don't care at this point.  No one will read it for quite some time, so there is no point.
     Blogging is pretty useless.  It doesn't do much of anything.  At least it hasn't for me yet.  Maybe someday it will, you never know what can happen in this world.

     Even with actual real book publishing, the only way to make money is to sell a s**tload of books.  Stephen King managed to pull that one off.
     Hack supermarket novels seem to be the most popular books in America, if people even think about books at all.

     It's a nice day.  It was overcast before, but the sun is starting to pop out and shine.

     Same old thing in the Mission today, just people doing their thing.  Every day is a new day, though.

     Dang, I have to pay rent.  I have to take care of that.  Always a pain to do.

     I need an income.  I've been working hard on my own stuff to try and make something happen, but no luck financially yet.  Someday something might happen, you never know.
     Maybe I'll make some naked lady paintings and film it for youtube.  Another artist did that, and he gets lots of hits because basically people want to see naked ladies, and not really the art.  They want to see what is depicted.  His paintings aren't actually all that good.  They are kind of amateur.  He is like a pin-up artist on canvas.  25 million hits on one video of a painting of the backside of a woman.  That is amazing.

     Coffee gets expensive, buying it every day.  That would be nice to blog until kingdom come just to get my coffee bill paid.

     To be an artist?  Good luck.

     I'm not doing great on youtube.  Every hit is a hard-fought war for me.  I'm lucky I've gotten this far, though.

     I'm trying to think if I should buy more coffee, or give up and go home.

     Well, I can't write a g**d**n article unless I f***ing have my friggin' coffee, so I bought another cup. 
     Writers need love if they are right, and most of the time, a hot cup of coffee in a nice cafe is enough.

     I have designated this cafe as my writing location.  I could sit here and draw in my sketchbook, but who would see it?  No one.  It would be like creating in a void, which, as it turns out, that is all I've been doing all these years.

     I would like to go back and read all the old Star Wars comics.  At a certain point, I gave up on the Marvel comics series.  It didn't seem to be that good after a while, when it wasn't about the movies.  They didn't know enough about the Star Wars universe enough back then, and they didn't know how to make it all work.  They do now.  Wookieepedia has so much information now about Star Wars that it is sick just how extensive it has gotten.

     I have some more Clone Wars to play today.  It is going to take me a long time to build my new lot.  This will be the place where I can build a four-legged Imperial Walker to scale.  I am going to do it.  I need all the pictures I can get of the design, though, so I can build it good.

     That is a pretty good picture to work from.  Cool.
     Woot.

* * *

     It takes a long time to become a writer.  Research is involved.  You have to know things in order to write about them, otherwise people think you are stupid.
     Most people expect very little of themselves, just watching t.v. or listening to pop songs for information.  rare is reading a magazine or even a newpaper article anymore.  People just read what is on the web, if at all.

     It takes a long time to write.  The rewards are limited.  Maybe I should go back to painting.  That is limited, too, as not many people care about art.  So, in other words, I am doomed, lol.

     I guess it all doesn't matter as long as I'm having fun.  But in the real world, I need to get paid, *itch. 

     'AT-AT' known mostly as Imperial walkers, stands for All-Terrain Armored-Transport.

Carrie Fisher and other stuff

     Hi, it's Sunday morning, and it is raining.
     I was just watching Carrie Fisher videos at home.  I would love to see her one-woman play on Broadway.  I hope somebody made a dvd of that.  I'd also like to read her writing.
     I did not know that they made a highly detailed sculpture of Slave-Girl Princess Leia with removable outfit.  You can see her ass, and they even painted the areola on each breast.  Carrie has that sculpture on her table, along with other Star Wars stuff around the house.  She even has Star Wars curtains made from the Star Wars sheet and blanket set that a lot of kids had.  She has a lot of the Princess Leia stuff. 
     She came to accept that most people know her from Star Wars, so she kind of just embraced and went along with it.
     Anyway, I was entertained by Carrie this morning.
     I even saw her in bra and panties in a clip from 'Shampoo'.  I'm going to have to see if I can turn that into a 'Star Wars: The Early Years' clip.  It might work with that scene.
     I've spent time trying to find old Harrison Ford footage that might be useful to create new Han Solo footage, but I didn't really find anything that was suitable.
     I might have to get real good at photoshop or something.

     So, I am a loser on the Edge of Eternity.  I never had Star Wars sheets.  In retrospect, I never liked the pattern much, I didn't think it was that good, but it was Star Wars, so I wanted it.

     Anyways, I can't believe how much I am getting into Star Wars again.  It's sick, but I'm having a good time, so I don't know why it matters.

     I had all week to get my Magic cards together for tonight, but I never got around to it.  I'll have to try and do it today.

     If Carrie Fisher couldn't even get one little award for her writing, I don't know what chance in hell I have of ever getting one.
     She is an experienced script doctor, too.  All these people talk about 'pumping up scripts' and I hate that kind of talk.  She was actually the one that could do it. 
     Sure it is easy to take somebody else's work and upgrade it, tweaking it to your tastes.  Making something from scratch is a lot harder, and takes a lot longer.
     That's why original work is so hard to come by.  It is rare to be original, and not easy for it to be good.

     Well, Lucas found something that worked with Star Wars, and people love it.
     Star Wars is great when there is some real emotion or humor going on.  It can get pretty flat when there is badly written dialogue.  Even in the new Clone Wars series there is some pretty corny dialog.  I don't know why they don't hire a genius at writing to go over all that shit with a fine-toothed comb.  They have enough money to create the visuals, so there is no reason why they can't get an awesome writer or word editor.       

     The cafe girl is playing classical today.  It's nice on a Sunday.  I don't know what that kind of music means anymore, or what context it fits into.  I'm trying to imagine film with the music I am listening to right now, and I can't do it.

     Anyway, I worked on my lots on Clone Wars when I woke up.

     This is actually the toy where you can remove the top and see her breasts, and you can push aside her dress in the back and see her ass.  Lol.
     I don't know why I didn't photograph the toy in the video when I saw it.  I was so mesmerized, I didn't even think of taking a picture of it.
     Of course, even though I saw the naughty bits on the toy, I don't know if I am allowed to post it on this blog.  Adsense seems to be a little uptight about that kind of stuff, even though it is a toy.  You have to protect the children of America you know, yeah, like any of them are ever going to see this blog.
     I guess kids might actually see this entry.  I've had kids go onto my 18 and over blog, even though they weren't supposed to.  Lol.
     But we all know that it's more about protecting advertisers then it is to protect kids, that is my gripe.  I can't say I blame them.  I'm sure they don't want to advertise where there is some picture of a dick entering a vagina right next to the ad.
     What is funny about advertisers not wanting adult content, well, it's like barnacles complaining about the ship they've latched onto, or a leech bitching about the neck it's attached itself to.

     All I know in this world is 'Money talks, and bulls**t walks.

     Some guy was talking about having sex with Carrie Fisher back in the day, and how he had a difficult time separating her from Princess Leia.  While he was going at it, he was thinking in his mind, "I'm f**king Princess Leia, I'm f**king Princess Leia!!"
     The appeal of being with her when she was still young was the fact that she was Princess Leia.
     I never thought Carrie Fisher was hot like a fashion model, or especially beautiful, but she had some spunk to her.
     The Slave Girl outfit changed things about how people thought of her.  That's when she became a sex symbol.

     Carrie has had her problems over the years, like most people.  At least she's got a brain, and she is still funny, and charming.
     There's no doubt about it that she's a star.
     I sure would like to read her writing now. 

The Business of Art

     Nothing going on at the cafe.  This is the first entry I am writing when I am not there.
     I could not think with those guys talking right next to me.  They were so tedious to listen to, I couldn't stand it, so I had to close up shop.
     It was too cold to be there anyway, what with the door open and all the cold air blowing in.
     I just want to be warm now, and make my own coffee, and some chicken soup, which sounds real good.
     It is good to eat chicken soup before you get sick.  Then you don't get sick.
     I've done that for a while now.
     I just love chicken soup anyhow, it is so damn good with some bread.

     Anyway, I was thinking about business while I was outside.  I haven't figured out what I want to do.  The art business doesn't seem to be too lucrative for me.
     It's hard to sell art unless you are a famous artist, and even that doesn't always help.

     Once your artwork gets into the marketplace, then people get in there and try and profit off of your work.  That is how it goes, and the artist kind of gets screwed over.

     Not easy to make original art, and then go through the whole process of getting it into a gallery, and then hope for sales.
     It is all such a pipe dream for me.

     Not only would I have to have tons of original, awesome work, but I would also have to have many people support me in the selling of it.
     That isn't easy, seeing as how I'm not much of a people person.
     I don't really dress for success, all I care about is the art.
     I'm not really ready to put on a big show of my person, in addition to making the art, too.  That is two full time jobs right there...to make the art, and then to be the public persona of David Lovins.
    That is more work than any man can handle.
     Then once you go public, you can kiss your private life good-bye.
     I already have people nosing into my business when I am Dirk Wampaflash on 'Clone Wars Adventures' who is currently, more famous than I am. 
     Happens.

     I have books on the 'Business of Art' that I need to read.
     I really do need to make something happen for myself, or else nothing will ever change for me.
     I need things to change, because my present circumstances are limited.
     Only so much I can do with the resources I have.
     I need more.

     Plus, there is that gaming computer I want, and video games I want to play. 
    
     I need to sell a lot of art if I am to improve my life.
     I had better get crackin'.

     Thank god for the cafe, though.
     It helps me to clear my mind, and to figure out what it is the hell I am doing that day.